black veil brides.. yup
black veil brides.. yup
Oh Andy!! ;*
Umm….Abby Was a dancer when she was younger??
Lately, life has seemed too complicated to continue. So i’ve spent a lot of time drawing and sketching. I have focused in on my art to try and take my mind off of everything else. I am currently on Partial Hospitalization and all day long while I am there I find myself sketching and doodling art all day. It helps me listen to what I need to listen to so that I can get better and be okay. Though the art I have been creating has seemed so depressing, emotional, and violent, it has helped me steer away from the negative things I want to do when I am in the place I am now. I also got a new anti-depressant medication earlier this past week, so I haven’t completely been myself because of the side affects. I am waiting it out to see if they will eventually fade away. Time is key!
Art is something that will never judge you, hurt you, or cheat you whereas many people in your life will. I have experienced that the hard way. Whenever I have gone through something like this, I have gone to art. The simple things makes the hard things seem non existent in a way. I get to disconnect and leave the real world for a little while to think and sort through some of my thoughts. It helps some days, but other days I just reconnect to the real world the same way I left. I let myself down sometimes. Living can be a huge hardship and for me it definitely is. I do understand that my life could be worse, but I have talked with quite a few friends who needed advice and their hardships seem so much easier than mine. There are quite a few things I have gone through in my life that I can’t talk about, but I do express through artistic forms.
Many of the things I have gone through and I am going through seem like they are never ending. They have put me in such a dark place. When I draw or paint things on a canvas about how I feel, it helps me release them. I can either use color to express much of the pain or leave it the simple minded black and white. Dancing is something that shows so much emotion that there is no need for words. The music, graceful motions, and facial expressions on stage tell the story. When I find a song that I can relate to, I think of specific memories that strike those emotions so that I can use my experiences and memories to my advantage. It is extremely helpful to tell the story. Through singing, I can tell a story with lyrics, movement, and facial expressions. The audience listening can truly tell if you are singing just to sing or if you really have made a connection with the piece(s) of music you are singing. I don’t tell everyone my story, but eventually I may. It is a learning experience for me. I am hoping that if I do tell my story, it will inspire others and let them know that life can get better and they will make it through. At this point in time I don’t believe this myself. That doesn’t mean I can’t help others believe that. Until then, I wont tell everyone my story with words, but I will use art to share my story!
"Dance isn’t just a hobby, but a way of life." -Unknown
Art comes in many forms and it’s all about self-expression. When you dance, you show others your thoughts through facial expressions. When you make art through painting, drawing, etc, you show your thoughts through materials. When you sing, you use your voice to share thoughts. You yourself choose how to express yourself.
I myself do a little bit of everything and they all mean different things to me, but there is one thing they all have in common. They help me survive. They keep me looking up when necessary and they help me get through the day.
Dance is a huge part of my life. I have been dancing for most of my life. I feel like I am alone in my own world when I dance and it temporarily takes away the pain I go through all the time. Dancing makes me feel like I belong and like i’m a part of something more than just a dance number. I feel like I am actually of some importance and I also feel like I mean something for a few minutes. I can make a huge impact on a person if I dance with my heart and that’s what I strive towards every time I walk on stage. I show my passion for music and life when I dance. It is a huge stress reliever and if I could I would do it all the time. I like to do contemporary, ballet, jazz, tap, and hip hop. Each one has its own challenges and helps me prove to myself and others that I can do different things and accomplish much more than I ever thought I could.
I have built confidence through each form of art that I have done. When I dance or sing, I become more confident when I am on stage in front of an audience showing them what I have spent so much time working towards and I prove that I am worth something to them. When I make art through painting and drawing I become less worried about what other people think of my artistic nature because to me it has a meaning. If others don’t understand it, I can explain it to them if they want to understand. I use to be so self-conscious when I was younger. I still am to a certain extent, but not like I use to be. To this day, I have become more aware of who I am as a person. Yes in many ways I am still totally lost when it comes to who I am, but it is becoming clearer day by day and I have nobody to thank but myself and art. Art has helped me through many things in my life and it continues to, not only my art but other peoples art also. As of right now, I am lost in life and have so much going on. Art keeps me sane. Art is my lifeline.
Thats what someone right now is feeling on We Heart It.
Seriously! No need to remind me!!
They'll never know the pain they
Throughout my entire life at school,
I've been bullied. Little by little,
each cruel word stole a part of my
existence and clawed away at my own
self-esteem. I pretended that I
wasn't hurt; the pain was buried.
But NO child should ever suffer from
something as preventable as bullying.
-Video Footage from Orphan
I wish others would get that!
Story of my life!